Well hello

Well, it's later today. Or tomorrow. However you want to look at it. I've got my playlist going and I'm  enjoying this gorgeous sunshine. Lets get straight into the rehashing so it's done and over with. Before I go into it all though I want to tell you all where my mindset is, and the song "All I Want To Do" by Sugarland really puts it into as much perspective as possible, though there's no romantic interest in my life to sing it to. -lol-

I keep getting distracted singing the different songs playing. Ha. Let's get this going. Thursday teh girls had their exams and the results were what I expected but it still sucks to know now. So I went down there to see them, took some dinner, wanted to spend some time with them. Then on the way to their new place we saw him sitting there on the side of the road talking to an officer. One of the girls was in my car and I've never in my life seen such terror in her eyes. I'm not gonna go into everything that happened, but it was a bad situation. A friend took me down there and helped calm Momma down and make sure the girls were okay. The amount of healing and love and laughter in that house is amazing though. Soon after the whole incident me and Momma were in the kitchen singing and laughing and dancing. And cooking soul food of course. The kitchen is where I feel most in my element. Cooking and cleaning. I don't know why, but it calms me and helps bring me back down to earth so I don't question it.

Next. Grandma is getting out of the hospital Monday!!! She's been in and out of the ICU, I haven't been able to go see her and it's tearing me apart. But I know she's doing okay and she knows I love her. She will be going into rehab for an undetermined amount of time, but I'm sure she'll be home eventually. All of us have been so scared she won't come out of the hospital, but she'll be out tomorrow! It's great news. Especially right before the holiday.

Holidays. Thursday, Thanksgiving, I will be eating lunch with my adopted family here. I will go see Grandma. From there I will be dropping my little bundle of joy off with his father. This year I've decided to go see a movie by myself, just for the experience. Pretty excited about it really! After that it'll be headed up to girls night to catch up with one of my very best friends :) Oh geez, our Lollipop song came on as I typed that. Taking it as a sign that we'll have a great night! I love our every other Thursdays. Gives us a chance to just be ourselves and forget everything going on for a little while. As long as I don't mess up my face again. Tehe :)

Other than that guys, I don't really know what to say. I'm on this brink of flipping out and just seeing how much further I can go. So many things have happened, tried to bring me down, and I'm still here standing and flying all on my own. My friends have been amazing this past week, they've been there for me even when I have been horrible. And I mean horrible. At one point I was on a ten minute rant about everything going on with my Dad's side of the family. Showed the ugliest side of me you could ever even imagine seeing. And they were all still right there, patiently waiting for me to be through. It means a lot to me. And then I came home and helped cut up a deer. -lol- My life is out of control, it's everywhere. I'm just here enjoying the ride though. Some things will have to change here soon, and for that I am preparing. But right now, in this very instance, I'm gonna get off here and go dance with a reckless abandon. Why would I do that, you ask? Simple. Laughter. It makes everything better :)