I just wrote all of this stuff out and it's gone. Completely deleted. Page didn't even save it like usual. I'm done right now. Maybe I'll retype it all later but for now I'm just gonna go cry and release my emotions that way. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for so many things. I'm sorry for not keeping you all updated, for slacking on my promise to myself. I'm sorry for everything going on with everyone. I'm sorry I've been selfish recently. I'm sorry I can't get my shit in check and be my usual self. I'm sorry that I've gotten a bit side tracked on this journey. Right now there's just too much. Too much all at once and not a thing I can do about any of it. They say its not about what's going on, it's about how you react. Well, right now I'm going to react very simply. I'm shutting it all out and I'm gonna have my self a good cry and possibly some sleep/rest. Screw retyping all that right now. Is just too much...I'm at that point where I can't deal with anymore. I can't provide any inspiration, I can't give you all any words of wisdom. I tried, and it all got erased. If you're reading this, know that I will be okay. For tonight though, I'm just gonna let the tears fall. At least nobody around will care if I shed a few :)
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