Admit it.

Well guys. I'm doing it. Doing this. The first step to healing is getting out of denial, admitting your problems. So here goes: I am in love with a man that is not in love with me. There ya have it. And I thought I could convince myself he didn't exist. Thought I could walk away and ignore my feelings. Then I met...we'll call him country boy, because no matter how much of a man you become a country boy is a country boy. So, I met country boy. And he's a good man. Accepting of my son, thinks I hung the moon, would do anything for me. But I don't love him like that. So now I've put him in the same position I'm in. And it sucks. Majorly. He loves me, I love him as a friend. I love this other man, he doesn't love me. Goodness. So from here on I'll let y'all know what all Country Boy does for me. And I'll keep track of what my heart is going through. Here is my question though. When you've had that moment you spent your whole life waiting for, and that person doesn't love you. When deep in your heart you know things could work given a chance and time. Do you walk away and ignore hope? Do you just be grateful for what you have offered to you and ignore the rest? Can I really do that to someone that knows I'm in love with another man? The answer to that question is no. But there's still that other question. Keep holding on or walk away? Can one really walk away from the person of their dreams, no matter how screwed up everything is? I know that others could give me  more than what has been offered. But I don't want it, I know what I want and I can't have it...so now what do I do?