I've debated over doing this. Still don't know if I'll share it with those I know. But it'll be here if I decide to. Yesterday I made a huge decision. Life changing for me and my son. I think it's gonna be worth it though. At least, I'm praying it is. I'm gonna start this journey, and share the ups and downs of it here. Basically, I'm going out on my own and I'm gonna do me. I'm not going to be me and someone else, I'm gonna be just me and my little boy. It's going to be hard, there will be a lot to deal with. But I know I can make it. There is going to be a lot f personal stuff to deal with, a lot of baggage to sort through and release, a lot of demons to lay to rest. A lot of people are involved, this decision is hurting some of them. And that is not me. I help, I heal, I do not hurt. For once though, I must think of me first. Because without me, there is no mommy. And if I lose myself to this disorder, to these memories or even to these feelings my son will lose his mother. The mother I want to be, the woman I know I really am. So this is day one...let the journey begin.
Also, if you have questions just ask, I'm an open book here. Just be prepared for the answer, even if its not something you want to hear.
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