I promised these.

                                     

So today's strengths to recognize. Trusting, honest and optimistic, they kind of go hand in hand if you ask me. I've been through some living Hells in my life. Really and truly, stuff to make a grown man cry. But I will always be an optimistic person, I will always trust first and question later. There is good that can come from any situation, no matter how bad it seems at the time. I was abused most of my life, beaten down til I was nothing. But from that I have learned how strong I truly am, I have learned how to love no matter what. And most of all I have learned forgiveness. Against all odds, I've come out a decent person if I think about it. Now, I have days where I feel like the worst person in the world. Overall, though, I don't think I'm any worse than anyone else. Anywho, if there wasn't optimism there I would've followed the path everyone said I would and there's no telling where or who I would be. Without optimism I would've condemned myself to a life of misery, there would have been no hope for a better future. That moves us into trust. The people that were supposed to love me, protect me, care for me, are the ones that hurt me the most. I had to make myself trust again. It was a long and ugly battle, took years upon years. Now though I can freely trust people. I'm an honest person and I expect others to be honest as well. Now, I know this does not always happen, and at times my naivety has gotten me in trouble. Trust though, is the foundation to everything. Without trust you are always waiting for the other foot to fall. I refuse to be waiting for something like that my whole life, there are other things worth waiting for. The last, and one of the most important to me, is honesty. I am straightforward, honest to a t and will tell you like it is wether you want to hear it or not. This is not saying I'm a saint. I've slipped, I've lied, and my conscience dealt with that. Nobody is perfect, but we can all strive to be the best we can be. Anywho, figured this post was necessary after the last. That one was kind of dark. I'm not going to explain these farther, don't think I need to. Just wanted to put some positive out there.