Should've posted this earlier, didn't have time.

Last night was hard for me. At first it was really dark. I was greatly troubled and my soul was screaming out for help. I felt completely lost, utterly alone and very afraid. The darkness of my troubled soul has always been something I have avoided and my fear of the unknown, including my own soul, is vast. I was tempted to ignore it and lock it away. That would have been taking a step back in this journey though. Instead, I reached out to my Momma, and as always, she helped me through. Now my main pain last night was not my own. It was for a very special friend of mine. I was lost and hopeless because I had no idea how to help this friend. I cried, I prayed with everything I had in me. I even made myself open up a very special part of my heart trying to reach out to this person without invading the space they needed. Jut lots of happy thoughts and love and pure joy sent silently to them from my soul. Through this struggle I gained insight into myself and accepted a strength hat I have. Compassion, as detailed in the last post. More followed which I will share later. For now though I'm going to revel in this newly recognized strength. I'll take some time to explore it, enjoy it and try to put it into every aspect of my life. Then I'll move on tothe others. Through every adversity, when you feel the mot pain and suffering, that is when you have the biggest opportunity to grow. So thank you special friend. You probably feel as if you burdened me, but in reality you helped me. I hope my strengths can help you as well.