Well hello there.

         

Today wasn't so bad. Work went by quick, got out of there way earlier than expected and with some decent, okay good, tips! Spent most of the morning (afternoon) packing. It's time consuming and tedious. I have fears of the unknown that always comes with moving somewhere new. I know my brother and I get along, I have to stay positive. This is the next step in my journey. And if it doesn't work, I'll figure out something new. The way I see it tonight? You endure more obstacles when you're on the right road. The path of least resistance is the one most traveled, and a helluva lot less fun. Tehe :) I'm still tired, and know that tired doesn't mean physically tired. I can still feel the remnants of the storm that has been raging in me the last little bit of time. I'm gonna be alright though, I've made it through worse. You know, I keep saying I've felt so out of control recently. Then I realized, you're never in control. You can either embrace the unknown, let nature take its course, or you can spend your whole life fighting against the tide. Plus, I've truly known a loss of control. It's terrifying, but I won't go into that tonight. You can control yourself in almost any situation. I know this post is a bit contradictory with its different analogies and such, but you should really hear the thoughts in my mind if you want contradictory. Make no mistake, I am still a mess. It's out of messes you can make some of the most beautiful things though :) for now, I'm jumping off here, too much on my mind and not a lot I'm ready to share with the world.